I have been very emotional lately as every day drags by and no good news on our adoption.I am at whits end and think i just need to step back and take a break.I am tired of hearing.. that cases that have court decrees will be processed to come home.Then hear this is all rumor and that it is not going to happen.
My mom upset me tonight when we were talking and i said when Jaxson comes home.She said...If you even get to bring him home.My heart fell to my feet.Those words effected me so much.A person can only take so much and i am to the point i need to step away leave the computer off.
I am on everyday in hopes to get good news i surf everything i can about Liberia adoptions and all the confusing..yes they are releasing no they are not releasing cases is enough to send anyone over the edge.When is this insanity going to stop?I worry about my child getting sick about his medical care and how unfair it is for him not to know the love of the family he has waiting for him who are going crazy to love him.
To me they are holding my child hostage...he is named our son we are named his parents.This is so wrong to keep him from his family.I am so upset with the government of Liberia and the president right now.The children are the ones who are the victims and are paying for their mistakes.ITS NOT FAIR!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
BLOGGER PROBLEMS
I could not get into my Blog at all.It would not accept my password hmmmm.I really dont know what was wrong but i went ahead and changed my password.Lets see if i have future problems.
SPOKE TO SOON!
One Senator could not help me.I got a call this morning and Senator Brownback is going to look into our sons case for us.PLEASE PRAY HE CAN DO SOMETHING to help us get our son home.Was very nice on the phone and needed me to fill in the blanks such as Jax birth date and such.I am praying this can help us get our son home.
PLEASE PRAY TODAY!
PLEASE PRAY TODAY!
Monday, August 3, 2009
RAMBELING
I got some things done and feel i have accomplished something through out my day.I ordered an activity bouncy seat for my soon to be born great niece Elaina. I even had it mailed directly to her door.I worked a little on Jaxson's blanket have more to do on it but it looks cute.Its more then half way done.
Tomorrow i have another day filled with things to do!Chad my sisters bf is coming over to work on the house and maybe Monty too.We will see who shows up.I have to do some more paper things tomorrow make copies of tax info or our adoption and get copies of Williams as well and do a few other things.
I wish i would get a phone call or even an email saying we can go get our son.I am not sleeping well and my stomach is in Knots.I just want him home.I feel a piece of my heart is missing.I don't know what else to do and i don't like not being in control. I just don't get adoption at times and why these countries feel the need to make things so difficult on the children and waiting families.Its been MONTHS sense the suspension and yet NOTHING is being done to correct it.I dint know if i can make it through anymore Holidays without Jax with us. I feel that i am hanging on the edge of a cliff one foot on and one foot off not know what exactly is happening with this adoption and to be truthful it has been very emotional and hard on my whole family.
I have begged my husband to let me go to Liberia to visit Jax.But i know with the financial aspect it is NOT an option.But it does not keep me from trying to find ways to finance my own ticket and Hotel cost.If i can figure that our he would gladly let me go.Any ideas?I save all the money i earn for the little guy i babysit but it does not add up enough for an expensive trip such as this would be.My heart aches to hold him close to me and love him.To meet this little boy that our family has fell in love with.To let him know he has a mommy that loves him so so much.With each passing day it is getting harder.
Tomorrow i have another day filled with things to do!Chad my sisters bf is coming over to work on the house and maybe Monty too.We will see who shows up.I have to do some more paper things tomorrow make copies of tax info or our adoption and get copies of Williams as well and do a few other things.
I wish i would get a phone call or even an email saying we can go get our son.I am not sleeping well and my stomach is in Knots.I just want him home.I feel a piece of my heart is missing.I don't know what else to do and i don't like not being in control. I just don't get adoption at times and why these countries feel the need to make things so difficult on the children and waiting families.Its been MONTHS sense the suspension and yet NOTHING is being done to correct it.I dint know if i can make it through anymore Holidays without Jax with us. I feel that i am hanging on the edge of a cliff one foot on and one foot off not know what exactly is happening with this adoption and to be truthful it has been very emotional and hard on my whole family.
I have begged my husband to let me go to Liberia to visit Jax.But i know with the financial aspect it is NOT an option.But it does not keep me from trying to find ways to finance my own ticket and Hotel cost.If i can figure that our he would gladly let me go.Any ideas?I save all the money i earn for the little guy i babysit but it does not add up enough for an expensive trip such as this would be.My heart aches to hold him close to me and love him.To meet this little boy that our family has fell in love with.To let him know he has a mommy that loves him so so much.With each passing day it is getting harder.
MONDAY!
Well i heard back from our senators office today .I just got off the phone with them.They informed me there is NOTHING they can do in regards to getting Jaxson's Visa.I am so bummed about this.I do know the Liberian Embassy and MOJ are working on releasing cases but that could take many many months or it could be very very soon.I am praying for the very very soon.Jax has waited a long time to come home to his family.
I am trying to keep positive but as summer is starting to wind down its getting harder and harder.I wish they would of went ahead and let us go get him in February.I am beyond frustrated at this point and want to shout out...LET MY CHILD COME HOME. This is all crazy and is doing none of these children any good to have to wait to come home.We had court he is our SON just let him come home .
PLEASE PRAY....The Embassy and MOJ come to there senses and start releasing these kids to come home to their waiting families.
I am trying to keep positive but as summer is starting to wind down its getting harder and harder.I wish they would of went ahead and let us go get him in February.I am beyond frustrated at this point and want to shout out...LET MY CHILD COME HOME. This is all crazy and is doing none of these children any good to have to wait to come home.We had court he is our SON just let him come home .
PLEASE PRAY....The Embassy and MOJ come to there senses and start releasing these kids to come home to their waiting families.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
WHAT MORE CAN HAPPEN!
This has been a horrible week and a half...My son William gets deathly ill and spends days in hospital.I prayed to God to give my son life as we were told his brain was bleeding and were scared to death.My son did not have a bleed but did have viral meningitis and is still on the mend.He is staying with us and while doing so his house was broke into and things were stolen.How can people be so cruel?
Last night my niece was in a car wreck and was very blessed God was watching over her.The car flipped over and she was knocked out.She spent several hours in the er but is OK just black and blue and very sore.All the women in the car were unharmed which was wonderful to hear.
My mom just called me that my oldest brother Jeff had an incident as well last night.His nephew(wife's side) came by the house last night and was starting a fight with Jeff's son in the house.My Brother Jeff was breaking the fight up and asked him to leave and he turned on Jeff.My brother suffered a broken collar bone,broken rib,2 black eyes and a cracked Jaw.What is wrong with people to think they can enter someones Home and beat people up?
I am hoping this week looks up as all my family members get back to health and nothing else bad happens.Tomorrow we are packing Williams belongings in his home and i have to call storage places and see how much a storage until will cost so store William's things.William filled out an application for a janitor position at the schools here and will turn it in tomorrow.He has experience and this would be IDEAL job for him.William wants his own place but knows the one he is in is UNSAFE.He needs to get on his feet before he can afford to live on his own.
Hope everyone is having a nice Sunday!
Last night my niece was in a car wreck and was very blessed God was watching over her.The car flipped over and she was knocked out.She spent several hours in the er but is OK just black and blue and very sore.All the women in the car were unharmed which was wonderful to hear.
My mom just called me that my oldest brother Jeff had an incident as well last night.His nephew(wife's side) came by the house last night and was starting a fight with Jeff's son in the house.My Brother Jeff was breaking the fight up and asked him to leave and he turned on Jeff.My brother suffered a broken collar bone,broken rib,2 black eyes and a cracked Jaw.What is wrong with people to think they can enter someones Home and beat people up?
I am hoping this week looks up as all my family members get back to health and nothing else bad happens.Tomorrow we are packing Williams belongings in his home and i have to call storage places and see how much a storage until will cost so store William's things.William filled out an application for a janitor position at the schools here and will turn it in tomorrow.He has experience and this would be IDEAL job for him.William wants his own place but knows the one he is in is UNSAFE.He needs to get on his feet before he can afford to live on his own.
Hope everyone is having a nice Sunday!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
BEAUTIFUL SATURDAY!
Its is beautiful here today.Spring like weather not hot at all but not cold enough for a jacket.I have turned ac off and opened the windows I LOVE IT.I was in search of wooden letters to paint so i can spell out Jaxson's name and put above his crib.I ran into a real problem and cannot find the letter X. I decided not to buy the letters until i have them all.I will check Hobby lobby and Michael's next week.
I have made very slow progress on getting things ready for Jax.I guess maybe i feel it passes the time until our precious boy comes home so i stretch the projects i am making out.I still have not touched his baby changer..Partly because i have no where at the moment to put it until the remodels are done.I dream of the day i hold him in my arms.I am so ready to meet him.The kids are so excited and cant wait to meet their little brother he is going to be surprised when he gets attention from 6 kids waiting patiently to hold and cuddle him.
I am so blessed... to be the parent of all 7 amazing kids and one amazingly handsome,and caring Husband.Who is also a wonderful father.I cant ask for anything more.Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.We have no plans and its low key .William is on the road to recovery so we are not going anywhere so i can take care of him and make sure he rest.
I have made very slow progress on getting things ready for Jax.I guess maybe i feel it passes the time until our precious boy comes home so i stretch the projects i am making out.I still have not touched his baby changer..Partly because i have no where at the moment to put it until the remodels are done.I dream of the day i hold him in my arms.I am so ready to meet him.The kids are so excited and cant wait to meet their little brother he is going to be surprised when he gets attention from 6 kids waiting patiently to hold and cuddle him.
I am so blessed... to be the parent of all 7 amazing kids and one amazingly handsome,and caring Husband.Who is also a wonderful father.I cant ask for anything more.Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.We have no plans and its low key .William is on the road to recovery so we are not going anywhere so i can take care of him and make sure he rest.
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