ORNERY BOY!

this one was taken a couple weeks ago!What a ham he is.

Waiting patiently for his breakfast!The minute he seen the camera he put the smile on.

This is what i got up to this morning!Clean folded laundry dumped on the floor and everything else he could grab.He is my mess maker.

CANT SLEEP!

It is 4:40 A.M and i am in so much pain i cant sleep.I decided to try a chiropractor and have a 9 a.m. appointment.I am praying she can help with this herniated disc.You can see the bulge on the back of my neck .It is rather painful and nothing seems to relive it.
No word on Jax yet and am still waiting for new pictures.I still have not changed his clothes from summer to winter wear but plan on doing some this week.I also still need to get his baby changer painted yes i am slow.But its been so depressing that i just cant bring myself to do it.I am still praying we can get Jax home before Christmas.My heart aches to hold him .I have not been able to convince my husband to let me go for a visit.I would in a heart beat if he would let me. Senator never got back with me so i am sending an email to see what they found out if anything.
How much longer do all of us families have to wait? Our children are growing and we are missing so much of it its heart wrenching.Not a day goes by that i don't pray for him and pray he stays healthy.I worry so much about our little boy.I hope soon we get some good news.

A NIGHT AWAY!

Michael has an appointment in the morning at Ft riley.It is a very early morning appointment so we have decided to leve tonight as its a long drive there.My cousin ruby is staying with the kids tonight so that is coverd.I am still in alot of pain which is causing me to get Nauseated.No matter what i do there is PAIN.
I called my doctors office and i cant get in until Monday.I dont think i can make it till Monday.I will call them again in the morning while waiting for Michael to get done with his appointment to see if they can get me in sooner.
No word on Liberia and i am literally going crazy.I just want some type of word of what is going on.This is maddening to me.I just want our son home.If i dont hear something soon...I will find away to come up with the oney and take a trip to Liberia to visit him.I need to hold my son.

HERNIATED DISC AND PAIN

I have a herniated disc in my neck that has been giving me allot of trouble.I had a series of epidural shots in my neck to help.It did help but not for long.Shots were in April.Friday i thought i had a kink in my neck from sleeping wrong.But yesterday i woke up in full fledged pain.I knew instantly what this pain was.I have never had pain like this and its untouchable Nothing helps it.I cant sleep as it hurts that bad.
For now i am taking Advil and doing warm packs but it just does not phase the pain.I will call my doctor on Tuesday.I finally broke down and took a lortab all it did was give an hour of sleep.The pan was still there but what little sleep i get i enjoy.

CLUTTER,DUST,LAUNDRY,HEATING

These are the 3 things i battle with most.The dust is awful due to the remodeling all my pictures are covered and curtains too!I have designated today to be the day to de clutter the piles that have formed in places it shouldn't and to dust and scrub everything.My dad is here painting my living room wall.There was a window there that is now a wall as my bedroom is on the other side.Once it is done and dried i can hang my pictures back up.
I will be happy when the remodels are finished.The dust and piles of cans of paint, ceramic tile and so on is starting to dwindle now .Soon we will have a resemblance of normalcy back in our chaotic house hold.
Our big thing right now is trying to get a heat unit in our home.We had an old Gas furnace last winter and it has seen its day.The old timer decided he was too tired and done with it all.So we have been getting estimates for heating and cooling and all duck work to be done before it turns to cold. The estimates have varied Greatly and the one we got today was the best by far.I am positive this is the one we will go with.
I guess this is long enough of a break my wash machine sang it me telling me its time to get my butt in gear.Hope everyone has a wonderful holiday weekend.

WHAT TO BELIEVE AND WHAT NOT TO BELIEVE

I am hearing that kids with completed court will be issued Exit visa's to come home.But then i hear this is not the case that no one Knows what is going on.All i know is that it is taking an emotional toll.I am trying to stay strong and keep it together.I don't understand what good it is doing to keep our son in a home in Liberia when he has a loving family with open arms waiting for him here.A family that can provide what he needs and surround him with love.
Why cant they see the importance of his medical care?Why cant they see that a home life is way better then the setting he is in.I worry about his health everyday and how long his days must be.I check the computer several times a day in hopes for good news.I still get a feeling that we are close.The feeling is so strong... I pray God is telling me something.
Our last adoption was rough and this one seems to be going the same route.My husband tells me everyday that God is testing us to see if we truly can handle this wait .I am emotional yes..Its frustrating yes..But Jax is worth every bit of what we are going through. Its hard and i don't understand why we wait.But i know when he comes home will be the most happiest glorious moment for us.A piece of my heart is in Africa I hope someday soon that piece will fit back in its place and this Nightmare will be over soon.
Please pray that our little boys health maintains until he is able to come home to his forever family who is waiting with open arms.Please pray that they get this all figured out and all these African Angels can come home to their forever families.

CHANGES

I decided i needed a change on my Blog and as the weather seems to be chilly this past week it feels like Fall is here.There have been changes in our household as well the addition is making a awesome transformation. I am working to get my son and his girlfriend back on their own and in their own home.I live them but it is time they move on.
Landen has made big changes lately.. his vocabulary is expanding and he is doing more on his own.He is a kid who likes things tidy and neat.He says Please and thank you more.He is such a blessing and i am thrilled i am his momma.
I feel a big change coming soon.I feel it deep down that Jaxson will be coming home very soon.I have heard nothing its just that feeling i get.I get it quite often and am hoping it means we will be going for him soon.I still am hoping to get new pics of him soon.Hope all is well with everyone.Cant believe how fast this week is going.