I cant sleep its almost 3 a.m. and i am up with Jax heavily on my mind.I search and read ANYTHING i can find about whats going on in Liberia. This is driving me mad!I keep praying soon he will come home.Then the what ifs...What if something is wrong with our paperwork?What if we cant get him home?What if they don't let any of us parents bring our babies home?
My mind don't stop with all the worries i have .I have been trying to stay POSITIVE as i did get some news last week.But things are moving so slow.Each passing day and week then Month gets harder and harder.Will it ever end?Will he come home soon and we can have our family happily together? I feel for all the waiting babies in Liberia as some of them know they have a mommy and daddy waiting for them here.It has to be hard on them too!
I think of all the children around the world waiting in orphanages for their day to come and go home with a family.I think about all the children who wont get a home and spend there days not knowing the love of a family.It saddens me to think everyday is another day of our sons life we are missing.Will this become a happy momentous day soon?Or will we wait for many more months or years for him to come home.I am frustrated all he needs is a visa and we wait for many months to get the OK because he cant be issued one right now.To me its not fair for Jax or the other waiting kids.
OK i am being a downer think i will try and go to sleep for a little while.I will say and extra long prayer for my baby before closing my eyes.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
YUCKY MONDAYS!
I have never liked this day!Partly because coming off a busy weekend and if things are going to go wrong it generally does so on Mondays.Today is no exception i woke up feeling icky...2 of my kids a viral like flu and i am sure i have caught it.The house is always a mess on Mondays from the weekends of camping and still unpacking things to be put away.
Later today i am going to town to get my nephew a hair cut and buy him a pair of pants for his new job.He starts tomorrow morning and these things have to be done.I have been busy trying to potty train Landen.Man is this child stubborn i know he can do it he just refuses too .I wont give up though i know he can .
So if you show at my door on Mondays you will find unfolded laundry and maybe a load or 2 waiting to be washed.You will find boxes of stuff needing to be put in its proper place and toys on the living room floor from a very active 9 yr old. dusty furniture in need of a good polish.HM maybe one day i will get this day down to an art,But for now the disarray is there.
Later today i am going to town to get my nephew a hair cut and buy him a pair of pants for his new job.He starts tomorrow morning and these things have to be done.I have been busy trying to potty train Landen.Man is this child stubborn i know he can do it he just refuses too .I wont give up though i know he can .
So if you show at my door on Mondays you will find unfolded laundry and maybe a load or 2 waiting to be washed.You will find boxes of stuff needing to be put in its proper place and toys on the living room floor from a very active 9 yr old. dusty furniture in need of a good polish.HM maybe one day i will get this day down to an art,But for now the disarray is there.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
WEEKEND
The weekend was nice and we spent it at the lake camping!Michael stayed home Friday night as he had a bad day.He was helping with the foundation and got hurt splitting his ear open and requiring it to be glued shut.he was sore and his back hurt so he stayed home and joined us (the kids and I) at the Lake last night.
There was nice breeze and the weather was warm it was very enjoyable.It was quiet and so peaceful.The moon was shining and glaring off the lake i am kicking myself for not getting a picture of it.I love camping but i don't like the packing and cleaning we have to do to come home.Of course their is the mound of laundry that also goes with it.Overall it was a ton of fun and i would not change it for the world.
Now its back to reality and hopefully good news about our adoption this week!I keep praying and praying.I pray this is the week we hear some good news!I could sure use some.
There was nice breeze and the weather was warm it was very enjoyable.It was quiet and so peaceful.The moon was shining and glaring off the lake i am kicking myself for not getting a picture of it.I love camping but i don't like the packing and cleaning we have to do to come home.Of course their is the mound of laundry that also goes with it.Overall it was a ton of fun and i would not change it for the world.
Now its back to reality and hopefully good news about our adoption this week!I keep praying and praying.I pray this is the week we hear some good news!I could sure use some.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
ROUGH DAY!
Today was a not so good day!My arthritis is flared up and my feet, legs, hips, back , shoulder's, and my hands have felt the effects.I didn't get near the things i wanted done today so i am bummed about that.Hoping to feel better tomorrow we want to go camping and i don't want to be feeling this crappy when i go.
Its late and i am still up no relief for the pain I'm in.I took some medication i am hoping i feel better soon. I am looking forward to going camping and enjoying the lake this weekend.More later!
Its late and i am still up no relief for the pain I'm in.I took some medication i am hoping i feel better soon. I am looking forward to going camping and enjoying the lake this weekend.More later!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
MORE DOCUMENTS COMPLETE
Today Micheal and I got our passport pictures taken that we need for our visa's.I also picked up the doctor letters we needed for our visa's.I have one more thing to get and that's about our income in 2007 and that's it we have all the paperwork we need to send for the visa's and what we need to take with us to Liberia.I have worked on all of this very slowly.But Now i got a little news i thinks its not going to be much longer at all now.
I got that feeling again like every time i do when i am gathering things.Is this real?Are we going to bring our sweet little boy home?That overwhelming feeling in the pit of my stomach that says YES its happening Yes i am his momma.I got that feeling and what did i do in turn?Went SHOPPING ha ha!I bought 3 cute short outfits for Jax they are SO cute. I am taking 2 of them with me..In my luggage that is Jaxson's is packed full ha ha.Yes i am probably over packing but hey i rather have enough then NOT enough.
Today was a bright day and sun shiny and topped off Knowing i got more stuff done for travel to our babe.
Jax Mommy loves you baby!Daddy and Mommy are coming soon little man!
I got that feeling again like every time i do when i am gathering things.Is this real?Are we going to bring our sweet little boy home?That overwhelming feeling in the pit of my stomach that says YES its happening Yes i am his momma.I got that feeling and what did i do in turn?Went SHOPPING ha ha!I bought 3 cute short outfits for Jax they are SO cute. I am taking 2 of them with me..In my luggage that is Jaxson's is packed full ha ha.Yes i am probably over packing but hey i rather have enough then NOT enough.
Today was a bright day and sun shiny and topped off Knowing i got more stuff done for travel to our babe.
Jax Mommy loves you baby!Daddy and Mommy are coming soon little man!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
LITTLE BIT OF NEWS!
I got a little bit of news on the adoption front!Please please pray that this ends soon and we can travel to get Jaxson.I wont share anything at this point but Prayers would be much appreciated.I had a dream about our little guy last night.It was like it was so real and that i could really hear him crying and looked in his crib and there he was.I was watching him in his crib in my dream and told my Husband i cant believe he is here with us.It was so real i could see him and touch him.Wonder what this dream means?Or does it have any meaning at all?
POTTY TRAINING
Potty training for Landen has begun.So far it is not going so well.He peed on the living room floor and just laughed.The child holds it until he is off the potty.I put him in regular training pants because he does not like the feel of pull ups.To me they are diapers and does NOT serve a purpose for training a child anyway.
It's raining and he cant play outside so what is a better day when he is in the house all day to work on potty training. I would love to have him broke by the time school starts back in August.I know he can do it he is just STUBBORN.any idea would be appreciated.Its always been up in the air if he would ever be able to potty train.He is smart and i know he can but i am willing to take suggestions from anyone.
It's raining and he cant play outside so what is a better day when he is in the house all day to work on potty training. I would love to have him broke by the time school starts back in August.I know he can do it he is just STUBBORN.any idea would be appreciated.Its always been up in the air if he would ever be able to potty train.He is smart and i know he can but i am willing to take suggestions from anyone.
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