MY HEART ACHES!

As i set here and read blogs of parents waiting to get their special needs babies home from Liberia and are stuck in this moratorium.One such child has hydrocephalus and needs surgery his mother is desperate to get him home.Another child Just like Jaxson with cp Passed away a few months ago waiting for a forever family to call his own.Another child who is called a demon by her community because she is special needs.After i read these post i went right over to my son picked him up and snuggled with him.
It makes me ache for all the kids in Liberia.The moratorium and the effects it has on the special needs children that wait.How can these children wait?Some of them don't have the time to wait?I am blessed we have our son with me yes. Until i am on that plane i wont feel secure that he is truly leaving with us.My heart aches for the many stuck in this and who wait to receive the Love and attention and medical care they so deserve.Our angel has blessed us and i am grateful to be here loving him.I have watched our son Blossom so much in less then 2 weeks.
I makes my heart hurt of the many children who deserve the love of a family and who have families that wait and parents wondering if their time is running out.Please pray for these kids and Pry that the moratorium is lifted and children can come home to the loving arms they have waiting for them.We get stared upon with our boy when we are out and about.I know they are thinking things like what would they want with a child like that?I don't care i know this is Liberia and how they feel about special needs children.Its like that in every country.Then we get people asking us if we are adopting him and when we say yes their reply is BLESS YOU.What would i not want with a child like this he is an angel and an inspiration to many.He is here to teach the world it is OK to be different.He is an angel that God has put upon this earth for these very reasons.I am blessed to be a mother of an Liberian angel and a very special one at that.

HE HELD HIS HEAD UP

I am so thrilled!This evening we went to restaurant to eat supper !I had little one setting up on my lap and he held his head on his own and was looking around.I was so excited he did this for about 30 minutes.He has a hard time turning his head to the left that seems to be the side he is effected by most from his cerebral palsy.When we get home i will have to find something he is interested in and put to his left side so he can strengthen the muscles in his neck.He is the most sweetest child.He don't nap which shocks me because he slept all the time at the home.I think he is used to a crib.He does sleep all night and would sleep all morning if we didn't wake him so we can go eat breakfast.

We went to the market today to get some more cereal for him.I was looking at formula because the can i brought is almost gone.I don't know what is what and i was afraid to buy.So he got Nido which is canned powdered milk.I don't like switching formulas and milks but not much choice until we get home.I also bought some baby food and am adding that to his bottles.He don't like apple bananas flavor .He has cerelac which he loves.. its infant cereal with the milk in it you just add water.Its pricey though and it goes fast i am saving that for the plane as it will be easier to mix that then it would be milk and cereal.

I was also happy to find cans of Pepsi !Michael also bought me some Reece's cookies i was craving chocolate lol.Tomorrow morning we will go have breakfast and then head to the foster home to spend the day.I need to get out of this hotel.My husband is feeling better if he can get rid of his headache.I am praying the travel letter is correct and we have no problems at the airport here.That is my biggest fear.I really need to get home to Landen.Michael said should something go wrong i would return home and he would stay.I am not comfortable with that.I have never traveled alone and this is the biggest trip i have ever taken.Please pray all goes well for us Monday when its time to leave.We have been gone way longer then we had planned and my little one at home is not doing so well.

TIRED!

I am so bored !My husband is cranky and suffering from a headache.I am tired of hotel room and want to get out and about so we are at odds today.My husband has a head cold and i know he is not feeling well.Tomorrow we are going to AFAA house for the last time.Oretha loaned us a couple outfits for Jaxson to wear.I really wanted to buy some and take home with us Kinda like buying from his country thing i don't know.I am a bit cranky myself today.
Looking forward to getting OUT of this Hotel room tomorrow.I have some really cute pics Of Little man but my comp connection is so bad i cant upload them.I hope its better in the next day or too.Ok its noon and little one is ready to eat.

VISA INTERVIEW

We had visa interview this morning and it went well. We go back to Embassy Friday and pick up Visa for our little guy.Then we go straight to working on the travel letter.Everything should be done on Friday.We cant leave until Monday because we had problems getting a flight out of Brussels.I was wanting to leave Friday i miss my kids...especially my Landen he is having a hard time with us being gone.I am counting the days till Monday when i can leave and get home and LOVE on my sweet Little Landen.We still need to shop for some clothes for Jax.All his has disapeared in hotel laundry.My husbands and some of mine have too.We are skimping on clothes.Michael and i will survive but the baby needs them.So tomorrow morning after breakfast we are headed out shooping for a few outfits for him.We have to manage our money tightly at this point as we are staying extra unexpected days. I have new pics i need to upload i got a great one last night of him smiling.

WATCHING BIG CHANGES IN OUR SON!

Our sweet little boy is amazing me.Today he has been kicking his legs all over.He hardly stiffened at all when picked up.This is great for him...I massage him 2 times a day and am noticing it is paying off he is not just laying and not moving he was kicking and smiley all day.He tries so hard to talk its absolutely wonderful.From Monday when we picked him up to today a week later he has changed so much.
We went to dinner tonight and had ice cream for dessert.I had a couple baby spoons i packed so we took one to the restaurant with us and thought why not see if he would eat a little ice cream.I put a tiny bit on the spoon and put it to his mouth.He didn't mind the spoon but the cold of ice cream freaked him out at first.The second bite he went crazy.His little mouth was opening like a bird waiting for a worm. He now has a new found love for ice cream.I did not give him very much as its new and don't want him getting a tummy ache.I definitely think he has been spoon fed or can be.I will ask Oretha if he ever been fed with a spoon because he was doing really good.
The clothes situation i just gave up.Oretha called us to see how we were doing and i asked her if she knew where we could buy some baby clothes for him.Tomorrow is a holiday so nothing will be open.She said after embassy appointment we would go shopping so this child has some things to wear that FIT.Tonight he ate 2 bottles of formula and baby cereal.I changed his diaper massaged him and put his Jammie's on.It wasn't a half our later and he was sleeping like the angel he is.I gave him a bottle today with cereal and a mixed fruit type juice.He did not care for the juice.He likes Prune apple juice though.
We have been trying to do tummy time to help strengthen his back and neck muscles.He is not having it he don't like it and will roll himself over.We have a boppy at home which will be great for this very reason.I am so very proud of his progress and we hope to see lots more of it. I still feel like i am in a dream and i am not really here.I am so so blessed to be his Mother.Our bond is growing deeper everyday.Pray everything goes great at the embassy and pray our flights can be worked out so we can go home Friday.Pray we get the visa and travel letter before or on Friday.

LEARNING MORE ABOUT MY BOY!

This morning Jaxson was laying next to his daddy on the bed.Michael said honey he is having a seizure.This is the first one he has had with us.He will be seeing the Neurologist when we get home.It was a gran maul and wore him out .I have a vent.The hotel here has complimentary laundry.Michael and I been sending our clothes and the little ones.Our clothes have come back but not Jaxsons i ask about them and they treat me like i am DUMB.He did not have many that fit him to begin with and now he is very low on clothing.I am hand washing in the room i refuse to send anymore of his things if we don't get them back.I am mostly mad because i bought these for him .He only had like 3 outfits that fit and now they are gone.Along with his baby blue blanket with silk on back side. Several pairs of socks and several bibs.He has 2 pair Jamie's out of 5 now and 3 pairs of socks out of 7.all his bibs are gone but 4 of them...I brought 10.

My husband said its OK we can buy him clothes when we get home but it is beside the point.I mean why would someone want my child's clothes?They are not expensive not name brand or anything.I Now have to put him in pants and onesies.It is too hot for Pants but am running out of options.Frustrated right now.The laundry people are to write each article of clothing down.Oh they did all but the babies.OK off my soap box now.

WORDS FROM MY HUSBAND!

delicate little fingers grasping your finger, eyes looking up and thanking you for Loving Me.A smile,a sigh ,a childs love is ever so precious......where does it all go when they turn 16?