FAMILY PICTURE!

All 7 of us and our awesome parents!

Happy 50TH!

50 Years and going strong!

50 YEARS!

Today is a big day for my Parents!Today they have been married for 50 yrs!This is quite an accomplishment now days.God knew these 2 were to be united together through their lifetime.We are having a 50th Anniversary Party for them tonight.All 7 of their kids will be in attendance including..their Grandchildren,great grandchildren friends and Family.I love you Mom and Dad!I I am in awe of the love you have for each other and have had for 50 years and counting!

Decisions!

Michael and I had to make a decision about our adoption!I will be first to say we are scared of the unknown.We were trying to decide if we wanted to move forward with the economy the way it is funding has been Horrible for us.I am not giving up.Our little girl is waiting for us.Michael and I discused it put our concerns and fears out on the table and have decide we need to bring our sweet girl home.The financing this adoption will come i am sure. We have god telling us to go get our sweet angel so that is what we will do!I have put a chipin up if you want to donate to help our sweet angel get home a bit faster.Every dollar counts!

PLUGGING ALONG!

We are moving slowly on adoption home study paperwork.We have had to address some things with Jaxson before we can fully get busy!Our fundraisers have gone pretty well still have to line up another as we are short on the rest of the funds.We will get there i am sure!
We hired a nurse!I really like her and she knows her stuff.She will start sometime this week!We have intake to do Monday with the nursing agency then we will know the nurses start date.This nurse took right to Jaxson and Landen.I was happy as Landen will be around the house allot when school is out and it was very important to us that she have patience with him.Things are looking up for Jax and us as a family.
I am still struggling with the nurse thing as i am handing my child over to her but i know it will be OK.My Husband will be here with her everyday!
This week my plan is to get as much paperwork done for the home study so we can get our beautiful daughter home.She is absolutely precious and we are just smitten with her!

DECISIONS!

When you have children there is always decisions to make for the best interest of your child.I am struggling with a big one for Jaxson.Nursing care will be coming in our home for jaxson.I am scared to hand my child over to a stranger to take care of.My husband and I have done all Jaxsons care.This will free up sometime for Michael and I but it also stresses me out.With me working 5 days a week that leaves Michael doing all his care .Michael also does his night care so i can sleep to get up for work.It is one sided for him so the nurse will relieve him to take care of other duties like yard work fixing things.It was not an easy decision to make on this.I have so many thoughts going through my head right now about having nurses coming in our home.I want what is best for our son who we love with all our hearts.I know its just my feelings on this but i feel like i am a bad mommy because i work and am not doing 100% of his care!I took this job out of necessity but now i just enjoy working.I love my job and i love my family.Its a hard call but feel we are making a decision that is in Jaxsons best interest.It just don't make it any easier.

HE IS A PRO!

Jaxson has learned a way to communicate...he is a pro at WHINING!Not the way i would love for him to communicate his wants and needs but he found that it works for him.It is real bad in the evening when he is tired!
Today we met with a case manager here at home.We got the hours chosen and things set up.Jaxson will be getting nursing to help with his care.I am still on the fence about this.I mean its hard to give up everything i do to put in a strangers hands.I am going to be a wreck for the first few weeks!We start calling agencies tomorrow wish us luck!

31 DAYS IS TOO LONG!

To not post anything on my blog!The Fundraiser ended for the Kindle fire and the winner was drawn!Yesterday we had a free will donation spaghetti supper and it went pretty well.This week we will be working hard on Paperwork!I received a new picture of our butterfly and Oh my what a sweety she is.In this picture she had a huge smile displaying how pretty our Butterfly is.I am so ready to be done with paperwork and home study and Move on To the day she can come home.
Things are going great here at home.Jaxson is thriving and learning by the minute.He is such a sweety and gives the most amazing kisses,The weather has been unbelievably awesome here.Hot enough we turned on the ac.Life is good.I have an amazing bunch of kids and a wonderful husband and soon a new daughter to add to the giggles and laughter.I am so so blessed!